Sunday, July 31, 2005

XMG

wondering wad 's XMG?? well its xiong mei group... a pitiful group tht exist for more or less 1 year bahz... it spilt in the end.. becoz.. 2 guys used 'have to study for Os so no time" as a reason to quit the group... after the 2 guys left .. that very day.. the group was disband... the playgroup was the last meeting place... each went separate ways.... HW still in bnss expelled from excos.. coping fine as a last year... Bel... still in sec 3 .. studying.. one year behind her friends... YL in a private sch .. studying.. reatking Os this year ... SK still in bnss last year as sec 5 NA... coping bad with her friendship still... Odd was in the middle of nothing... she's a dangling.. girl.. left hanging nowhere... WL had further his studies in NYP.... XW... quit sch... and.. going no where.... well this is the story bahz... from JIe Mei to Xiong Mei ... To nothing.... saw bel blog... scroll my mouse to weileong and saw below.. exXMG ,, well exactly wad she's ..sentimental..... this is life... you meet you love you go you rmb.. while others will forget and carry on.... while those carry on.. doesn't mean they forget... S.H.E: Superstar... FoodFair..... the hand phone thingy.. the chalet... well it goes down to history...

Monday, July 25, 2005

well...

well... haha.. today is really a strange day .. well.. had to go to school early in the morning.. and well to my surprise... i saw guan jie on my way out... well.. say him walking to the bus stop... really wonder how is he le... how about his operation... many many things i want to know .. yet .. i really dun have time to really sit down and talk to him ... well... and well.. went to suntec to shop for formal wear ... and well.. and to drop by the G2000 shop since its having real good sale.. and well.. am contented with on long sleeve... on my way back... and forth the suntec bridge .. i saw an unexpected guest... well.. its huimin.. erm .. sum one i knew from SSC.. and well i guess she dun know who is me then haha.. since i have nvr really talk to her.. haha.. well.. so .. this proves sumting... zen is not= to hui min.. coz... i really find that zen = huimin.. but well.. its not hahaa.. and. ya... i am like thinking.. there's one thing i should talk about.. and .. ya.. ben.... have i intro ben to you all?? haha well ben is = to my dragon boat coach.. but he just wan us call him ben .. so ben lorzx.... haha.. he's a very very lame person and cool at the same time.. he's real cool.. haha.. but well nvr thought tht he's such an experienced icer breaker.. haha.. his games is fool of fun... ya.. fool of fun... ... you should try too haha.. and well ya.. DRagon BOat Rockz hahaand well.. he's is evil.. i nvr thought tht.. hhaa well.. but overall its fun la.. haha tiring too haha JIA you.. tmr econs presentation... and.. next week.. marketing... haha

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

alrite heeeheheeee then....

hakunamatata... supercalifragalisticexpedelidocious.. haha.. erm... daijiobu daijobu haha... erm... haha .. running out of ideas haha.. well.. not being really playing recently.. whether its initialD or pool or billard or time crisis or X boz... well.. kinda really cramp with dragonboats and projects.. and.. erm... union and primers and ahahha lots whahhaa
looking forward for the holidays so i can play all i want .. but well i know... cca dun stop!! DRAGON BOAT continues.. AND WELL>.... OUR SPIRIT LIVES ON!! haha.. haha looking forward for teachers' day too .. so that i can go back to see the school.. heard tht the school change 180 degrees haha.. well i really want to go back and see!! haha

CIAOZ!.. project work time haha

Monday, July 11, 2005

life....

well i think that life.. is such a funny thing... life always like to tease and make fun of people... maybe... these maybe that.. he's lying in hospital yet i can do is nothing.... now he's back home.. yet all i can do is still nothing.. when he's still soo weak... damn it.. can anyone tell me more about these he has to go through... is it a challenge gave by god? or its his retribution... BUT HE DID NOT DID ANYTHING WRONG!!! NO ONLY HIM.... the one who taught me wad is leadership HAD already left me.... or is it me tht they are making fun of... those... who are not tht close to me... yet when they leave me.. or they became sumting or happen sum things .... just to make me feel bad/giving me such a deep impact...?? is it this world i am living in?? or when i am still sooo young to make decisions .. and parents have to make a worse decision of all making me feel worse??? i have been in this world for 17 !!! yesh 17 ALREADY!!!! yet... after sooo many year i knew the truth..(not tht i am adopted or wad PLEASE DUN MAKE GUESSES) ... KAOZ> my life is funny isn't it?? i always thought tht yeah.. just a smile will bring us through ... is it that difficult... can i just dun care anymore... am tired...

Saturday, July 09, 2005

found sumtin interestings at the friendster bullentin. yeah should take a look... in terms friendship love and relationship love yeah..



If you're afraid to love a person because offriendship, you have two choices: either tell whatyou feel and let the love take place or hide thefeeling under a friendship full of pretensions.It's hard for two people to love each other whenthey live in two different worlds but when thesetwo worlds collide and become one, that's what youcall magic!Love can never be so beautiful without friendship.One leads to another and the process isirreversible. The best of lovers is the greatestof friends!I like you because you're my friend, and becauseyou are my friend I care, and because I care, Ilove you.I don't love you because you are my friend, I loveyou because I do!Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make mehappy? To think that I have everything else, I getwhat I want. Then I realized it was YOU, too bad'cause it's you i can't have. I can't choose whoI'm gonna love, but I also can't love who choosesto love me.And you can't blame me in choosing to love you asmuch as I can't blame you for not learning to loveme. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way youloved the one before me, so I'll let you go findhim/her and hope someday you'll see that the onetrue love you're looking for was the one who setyou free."How can I say goodbye to someone I never had?Why do tears fall for someone who was nevermine?Why is that I miss someone I was never with and Iaskwhy I love someone who's love was never mine?"Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attentionof the one we think we love; we hardly notice theone we're really looking for was just there. Youdon't notice them 'till they are in the arms ofsomeone else.Food for thought, think of this:Have you really cared for someone more than youexpected?Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of allthe pain?Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whisperssomeone else's name?Will you?It's better to lose your pride with someone youlove rather than lose that someone you love withyour useless pride. When you love someone, don'texpect that person to love you back the sameamount. One of you will be head, the other behind.It's either you catch up or the other waits.When you love, you must not accept anything inreturn, for if you do, you're not loving butInvesting.If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, forif you expect happiness, you're not loving butusing. True love hears what is not spoken, andunderstands what is not explained, for lovedoesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but inthe heart...Love is like standing on wet cement, the longeryou stay the harder it is to leave and you cannever go without leaving your prints behind.Don't love a person like a flower, because aflower diesin season.Love them like a river because a river flows forever.Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'causelove doesn't have to end at all.Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt alot, it may give you aches and pains, but if youdon't follow your heart, in the end you will cryeven more for not giving love a chance.Love may leave your heart like shattered glass,but keep in mind that there's someone who'll bewilling to endure the pain of picking up thepieces so you could be whole again.The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is tolet her fall in love when he doesn't intend tocatch her fall! And fooling around with herfeelings like they meant nothing.(This goes forgals as well).

Sunday, July 03, 2005

sometimes i would just walk poinless in the streets just to smoothen down my mood...
sometimes i would just blast myself with loud music just to get out of the compliants of people
sometimes i would just lay down on my bed thinking about the world of you and me
sometimes i would just get myself a cup of eargrey tea just to relax my mind
sometimes i would just make myself happy by thinking of the happy moments in my life
sometimes i would just chill at some bar just to make myself drunk
sometimes i would just go for a movie alone just to enjoy the life without anyone else
sometimes i would just eat till my stomach get bloated so that i can at least know that i am fortunate
sometimes i would cry out loud late at night so that everyone thinks i am strong being a man
sometimes i would just be myself...
but wait who am i? who is myself?? haha i dun know...